A New Day-New Strengths

Mary Karr— 100% Badass- courageously voicing what most dare not admit and rather not hear. Enjoying her narration of her memoir, Lit. Feeling giddy and motivated by her first, angry, tight lipped prayer: “Higher Power-where the fuck have you been?”…    “How dare I?  Finally,  showing up with machine gunfire on my ass. What business do I have praying and asking?  I am thin, white, employed, with insurance, HIV negative, with reasonably straight teeth”  hahahaha  I love you♥ Mary Karr!  Thank you for a much needed reminder of the gifts of recovery that are mine when I just show up and do the work, one next right thing at a time.  Raw. Magical. Healing. Truth.

For Today:  pray, hydrate, exercise, clean something(lots of choices, there).   Mindful cleaning is the best I can do to be meditative and silent-mentally still, opening my mind to let the universe in.

This morning, I prayed. “Please help me to feel better, to feel good about preserving my well being” Tonight before bed: “Thank you”.  Tomorrow I will do it again.   And the day after.

 

 

 

Much Love,
Magda Gee

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Author: Magda Gee

I am in a program of recovery for those whose lives have been affected by someone else’s drinking, drug use, mental illness. I am new to the experiences of faith and hope and courage, qualities absent for me in proximity to my family. No Contact has been the way to keep safe from diminishing words and actions directed at me. I think I have listened for the last time to how I deserve mistreatment. By holding out for something more wholesome and loving, I have been both banished and demanded to return. I prefer serenity to proximity. I will continue with my program and faith in the best possible outcome, so long as I do my part– to stalk GOD as if my life depends on it.

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Higher Powers, Gods, and prayers feel awkward and insincere. Sounds as if you have yourself a prayer that works. I think I might try Mary Karr’s version!

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