We Can Do Hard Things

Sweet Greg and I had a profoundly expansive and beautiful near 2 years together and have sadly arrived at a place in which we cannot continue as we have, believing knowing what we believe “know” and feeling what we feel.  Tomorrow is my birthday and while many would want to just get through that, the last thing I want is a strained or achy birthday dinner.  I have had my fill of those. In the process of moving homes, changing jobs, and entering into the holiday season, it seems unfair timing to cut myself loose from someone so dear, I understand that friendship ONLY is not appealing to him.

•I am sad

•I am grateful

•I am angry

•I am being responsible and fair

•I am grieving—just add this to the pile of things to grieve

•I don’t like it

•I will not pretend

•I will not deny

•I will not ignore

Possessing the courage to share my truth and to step all the way into it, one more time, dividing me from someone, whom I do not want to be without, is something I feel good about.

DAILY READING RECOVERY-Relationships are lessons in my soul growth.My recovery and relationship to God and myself matter more to me than any relationship or relationship status to others.  I am divorced.  I am single.  I am choosing authenticity over fear. I am BRAVING (Brene Brown-Braving the Wilderness)

Much Love,
Magda Gee

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Author: Magda Gee

I am in a program of recovery for those whose lives have been affected by someone else’s drinking, drug use, mental illness. I am new to the experiences of faith and hope and courage, qualities absent for me in proximity to my family. No Contact has been the way to keep safe from diminishing words and actions directed at me. I think I have listened for the last time to how I deserve mistreatment. By holding out for something more wholesome and loving, I have been both banished and demanded to return. I prefer serenity to proximity. I will continue with my program and faith in the best possible outcome, so long as I do my part– to stalk GOD as if my life depends on it.

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That’s a mighty mature share there, lady. My heart actually hurts for both of you, but at the same time, I see the beauty in your being able to say goodbye to someone you loved and still do love (very, very differently) in that way that lets you face the best and the worst in your inner being. You know that chapter of your life has been incredibly important, and not least important is the way you manage your deepest feelings as you paint the last brush strokes in the picture. To think back on the end of my first… Read more »
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