Month: October 2018

Acceptance, addiction, dirty secrets, disloyalty, Faith, J Catherine ghoneim Whitney, mental health issues, Musings, Self-Love, Trauma

Why Lie

Alone in the car with my younger son, today, I pretended to take credit for saying something fantastic, a quote which actually came directly from him.  He was like:  “Mawm,  I said that, not you.”  In all seriousness,straight-faced, I replied; “Nah-aaaaah, I am totally the one who said it.”  He was rightly disturbed- I admitted …

addiction, dirty secrets, disloyalty, home design- home wrecker, how is it going with your sisters ex, J Catherine ghoneim Whitney, mental health issues, Musings, Trauma

Some Letters

Angry letters I would write and send if not for recovery.  I have anger, but it is not the boss of me.  I let it teach me and then I get to practice taming it. Dear Dad, I experience little conscious memory of you, only of the raging in our house and you bringing home …

Musings

The Pain We Do Not Heal

Recovery has been a wildly unpopular choice—quite agitating to those threatened by the idea that there is something wrong—other than only my existence.  My healing has been labelled a lie, a show, an attack, a war, a story to get attention. I hear this frequently from others in recovery-“Recovery is a deal-breaker and a relationship …

Acceptance, addiction, dirty secrets, disloyalty, home design- home wrecker, how is it going with your sisters ex, J Catherine ghoneim Whitney, mental health issues, Mindful Parenting, Musings, Trauma

The Part Where You Fucked Up

The tribal tension in our country right now is a perfect parallel to the dynamic of my family of origin-  overflowing of remarkable efforts toward rightness and to victory, rather than goodness/kindness.  Right in this context, referring to triumph and domination.  As if winning and dominating are evidence of truth and goodness. In my journey …

addiction, home design- home wrecker, how is it going with your sisters ex, J Catherine ghoneim Whitney, mental health issues, Musings, Trauma

The Smiling Poop Emoji

A pile of poop with a smile, is still poop.  Sunday’s sermon began with the smiling poop emoji on both of the teleprompter screens.  The visual presentations were prefaced with, “If I could find a way to best describe this past year, it would be this (the emoji).  I lost my father suddenly to cancer …