Month: December 2018



I have never, not ever, not once in 50 years had a moment of resolution with my mother or sister in which each of the people own their contributions to the situation.  All initiatives by me are handled one of three ways:  1-No response.  2- A response that does not acknowledge what I have said …

Acceptance, Faith, Intimacy, Mindful Parenting, Musings, Self-Love

Rest In Peace

Yesterday, overly tired from waking at 4am, unable to return to sleep. I ruined myself from 4-8am, with recycled, if not hysterical thoughts of my older son and the cloud hung over his birthdayS, by his father and my sister.  Lack of sleep will make a person tired.  And, for someone like me, I am crushed, …

addiction, dirty secrets, disloyalty, home design- home wrecker, How is it going with your sister's ex, How tasty is that low hanging fruit?, J Catherine ghoneim Whitney, Jilan Ghoneim Catherine Whitney, mental health issues, Trauma

Fake Peace

I am grateful (though broken hearted) that I was able to tell my older son (S1) and his father, in no uncertain terms, that I would not participate a shared birthday celebration together with dad, as things currently are–that things may still change and how sorry I am for the pain which this causes.  His father and …