Author: Magda Gee

I am in a program of recovery for those whose lives have been affected by someone else's drinking, drug use, mental illness. I am new to the experiences of faith and hope and courage, qualities absent for me in proximity to my family. No Contact has been the way to keep safe from diminishing words and actions directed at me. I think I have listened for the last time to how I deserve mistreatment. By holding out for something more wholesome and loving, I have been both banished and demanded to return. I prefer serenity to proximity. I will continue with my program and faith in the best possible outcome, so long as I do my part-- to stalk GOD as if my life depends on it.
Acceptance, Faith, Musings, Self-Love

Kindness v. Friendliness

RE: Greg’s kindness:  S2 asked  “Is he that way because his parents are like that?”.  My response segued nicely into expansion of my own “family” experience.  Any excuse at all will do!  Feigning diplomacy, I shared how having grown up with the intense harshness of my childhood home left me lacking any understanding of authentic kindness and gentleness.  I still cannot help but marvel at kind, respectful, gentle natured people.  Intentional and undiscriminating kindness …

Acceptance, Faith, Musings, Self-Love

Speak Your Heart – Listeners Will Listen

Hello Friends,  I have recently discovered what I consider to be the perfect artist.  Perfect, maybe because she doesn’t confuse me- because each of her pieces is deeply personal and relatable with its aesthetic simplicity and raw emotional complexity.  It is not only  “fun” but moving; igniting my neeeeeeed for creative self-expression that connects, soothes, and stirs others, as …

Acceptance, Faith, Musings, Self-Love

We Are Only As Sick As Our Secrets

Hello Friends, “I’m 44. I’ve been recovering for years in xxxxx meetings for adult children of xxxxxx. With your help, I now own my past. I live in the present with a God of my understanding, and I face the future without fear. I tell you about the pain. I tell you about the anger. …

Acceptance, Faith, Musings, Self-Love

Being Heard v. Being Erased

In my upbringing I learned all about shutting down–trying to erase you or at the very least, make you feel erased when you differed from,  or maybe even were similar to me, in ways that illuminated my imperfection wrongness.  Generous efforts were dedicated to my own erasing of myself—trying hard to not feel what I felt, to not know what I knew, and to …

Acceptance, Faith, Intimacy, Musings, Self-Love

It is not Impossible, but UNpossible

Dear Sister, After watching Alice Through the Looking Glass tonight, I see my continued lack of acceptance for your current arrangement.  Whatever motivates your crusade to have me banished makes a healthy union UNpossible.  This  is what I would say to you, if you were listening for anything but your own voice.  My only regret in this matter is having brought …

Acceptance, Faith, Intimacy, Musings, Self-Love

Bless Them, Change Me

So,  I have become increasingly aware of a dynamic, a pattern of behavior that feels icky to me. Because I have been guilty of this, I am inclined to judge it harshly; little tolerance, given the choice. It is true; some days our attitudes and behaviors are better than others.  However, to be cold, diminishing in one moment and …