The Pain from the Pain
Today, my back hurts—badly. But the pain itself is only the beginning. Almost immediately, I feel panic. That’s my second skin, my automatic response to discomfort: fear. Not just fear…
For me, the crushing depression and anxiety engineered by the system kept stuck in survival mod. Thus never able to self actualize. See Maslow’s Hierarchy.
Today, my back hurts—badly. But the pain itself is only the beginning. Almost immediately, I feel panic. That’s my second skin, my automatic response to discomfort: fear. Not just fear…
“For to everyone who has, more will be given, and he will have an abundance.But from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away.” This…
THERAPIST: So you’re upset that your mom pointed out missed chores and unmet expectations — even after a few consistent weeks of you doing them without reminders? SON: Yeah. I did them…
Growing up highly sensing neurodivergent, I wasn’t seen as struggling — I was seen as willful and defiant, seeking control and attention with my needs. Survival meant submission — something I…