The patterns I still carry, the ways old experiences can show up in the present, and my effort to sort out what I am remembering from what is actually happening now. Recovery, pattern recognition, regulation, and slowly gathering new evidence.
Highly relevant and illuminating passage from Braving the Wilderness by Brene Brown and brilliant supporting meme made with ♥ by yours truly : THE PROLIFERATION OF BULLSHIT Someone who lies and someone who tells the truth are playing on opposite sides, so to speak, in the same game. Each responds to the facts as he understands them, although the response of the one is guided by the authority of the truth, while the response of the other defies that authority…
Shit shit shit...I just got third party information that my mother has been taken to the hospital. My mother has made her decision and choices clear. So, I suppose I will wait and see what her family sees fit to share with or ask of me. I never did get the playbook on how to manage this sort of thing. But I did find these brilliant words of wisdom and comfort over at ScaryMommy: "But there is only so much…
There is much change in my life as I transition homes and career AND try to accept the finality of my family of origin's committed alignment with my ex husband, which for many reasons is harmful. They do this to circumvent the depth of work toward resolution or even genuine peace between US, without forfeiting physical access to my children. I often feel desperate for certainty. So, with the recent disconnect(revealed by political differences) between Sweet Greg and me, I…
Holy smokes! I just listened to Day 2 of Marianne Williamson (47 times,of course) A Year of Miracles: how miracles happen when we choose expressions of love without the distractions of fear, anxiety, shame, guilt, resentment—and all things not built on love. What the what? I know it is a little woo woo, but today, I am partially, if not deeply, moved by these sentiments. I recognize in myself the indisputable need for spiritual adjustment. Marianne goes on, to blow…
