The patterns I still carry, the ways old experiences can show up in the present, and my effort to sort out what I am remembering from what is actually happening now. Recovery, pattern recognition, regulation, and slowly gathering new evidence.
Saying Good Bye was beyond painful. We love you. Rest in Peace Sweet Lamb!
The other night, my older son was distraught by a situation at school and was spiraling into despair by obsessing on the unfairness and the reason/ question of WHY? Only because I have some recovery, was I able to say to him, that demanding to understand why and mentally sustaining the argument with ourselves of how it isn't fair, only makes us feel worse. We must continuously and intentionally choose the the very next right(spiritually right) thing over our reaction.…
Bullet Journal- How To Draw Easter Eggs-This is not my work.
Ugh! My life has never been better. Ever. But this does not change the reality of my depression and anxiety. In fact, they are made worse by the expectations that I feel or be different because of what the calendar suggests about the day. Clinical Depression and Anxiety, whether a result of trauma or just basic brain chemistry are not circumstantial. They are not moods. I am preparing for my first vacation ever with my boys. It is Easter and…
Happy Valentines Day, y’all ♥️ My favorite part of my relationships is the laughing endlessly, together, over exactly how unreasonable we can be, at times, complete lunatics, incapable of acting or thinking right. Sometimes being reasonable is not possible and that is ok, because we can acknowledge that, learn from it and laugh like crazy while being merciful with ourselves and each other, as we call out our own disturbing behaviors and thinking. It is not possible to move on…
Labelling the Formatting Issues as errors is part of an ongoing joke between Sweet Greg and me. As I said, we really do not get angry with each other and the times in which we have, we attribute to what we now recognize as "formatting errors". For us, this means, that possibly, the person who is angry is rightfully so, because the other person said whatever they said the "wrong" way. And if they would have communicated correctly, there would…
