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Becoming Whole After Decades of Dis-Integration

I am…

  • According to MBTI, an ISFJ
  • Enneagram: almost equally #8 and #4 (UPDATE: after taking the paid test at Ian Morgan Cron, I lean more toward #8)
  • On the cusp of Libra and Scorpio—I think I’m Scorpio
  • The younger of two children, the youngest of six cousins I knew
  • A teacher by trade, a forever student by choice
  • Blessed with two stunning sons, my greatest teachers and inspirations
  • A lover of animals, kindness, loyalty, depth, connection, space, truth, books, tattoos, yard work, inside jokes, belly laughs, good cries, humility, open communication, transparency, directness, and boundaries (mine and yours)
  • Obsessed with getting my hair cut and colored—it may be my hobby
  • Mostly pescatarian, though I occasionally eat chicken or turkey (and don’t always feel great about it)
  • Divorced—and grateful; finished with loveless, soul-killing relationships
  • In a program of spiritual recovery
  • Well-traveled
  • Half Egyptian
  • Officially orphaned
  • Estranged from my family
  • A loyal friend
  • A generous partner
  • A good neighbor
  • A great employee and support person
  • A fierce teller of truth and asker of difficult questions
  • Tall and “thinnish”
  • Assertive—often perceived as aggressive—working on this
  • Courageous and faithful
  • Spiritually awakening
  • Empathetic and compassionate; I care deeply for others, particularly those in need
  • An HSP (highly sensitive person)
  • Someone who struggles with sensory integration and feels overwhelmed by nearly all sensory input
  • At times socially awkward—and totally okay with it
  • Missing my bestie during COVID social distancing
  • Considering a writing class; I dream of being gifted in satirical writing—or any writing, on topics beyond struggle and healing
  • Grateful that my work and ability to provide for my family have not been diminished by the pandemic
  • I am who I say I am. My words, actions, beliefs, and values are aligned—no matter who sees or hears. After decades of dis-integration, I am becoming whole.

UPDATE: So, I splurged on the $60.00 test which designates me an Enneagram 8.  Though, most everything about THE 8 revolves around intense fear and avoidance of vulnerability—. I am pretty deep into vulnerability.  Shamelessly unafraid. So, the direction and feedback provided with the paid test seems useless to me. I don’t care which number I am, I really just wanted more angles and direction for growth and healing.

Magda Gee

I am in a program of recovery for those whose lives have been affected by someone else's drinking, drug use, mental illness. I am newly learning faith, hope, and courage, practices not witnessed by me, in my childhood, with my family. Sadly, No Contact, as a last resort, is how I keep safe from diminishing words and actions directed at me. I think I have listened for the last time to how I deserve mistreatment. By holding out for something more wholesome and loving, I have been both banished and demanded to return. I prefer serenity to proximity. I will continue with my program and faith in the best possible outcome, so long as I do my part-- to stalk GOD as if my life depends on it.