Starved
When hunger has ravaged you, you’ll consume glass, whisper thanks, and await the next hunger’s call with trembling heart.
When hunger has ravaged you, you’ll consume glass, whisper thanks, and await the next hunger’s call with trembling heart.
I read a quote today which has me weeping. I'm weeping all the time anyway just about over every single song and everything reminding me of all the love I…
The messages from my family of origin were unmistakable: "We will not show empathy or understanding for your perspective. In response to what we perceive as distortions, we will only…
It’s painful to recall being scolded in shaming ways during overwhelming moments: "Why are you so angry? Why are you so defensive? Why are you yelling?" I percieved but could…
I am gradually acquiring better language as I work to heal from things which (for lack of a more precise word) I previously identified as abuse. While abusive things were…
The culmination of sleep deprivation, chronic pain, C- PTSD , sensory overload (when in the presence of most others) can fuck heavily with my resilience and discernment. Sometimes Often my…
Today, in rush hour traffic, I trekked uptown for a medical appointment. As an anxious and easily overwhelmed person, with a poor sense of direction, I avoid driving busy and…
Ugh, another day to grieve. Not grief that I have sons, but who they get to see me as. I wish they could have known the person I was before…
What my healing looks like: I get dysregulated and lose my shit – saying reactive and escalating things---and behaving badly. And then: I apologize and acknowledge that the immense reaction…
The irreparable damage of having actively engaged my children in schemes of parental alienation and betrayal of their mother, is not a thing, we as a family, have recovered from. …