What my healing looks like: I get dysregulated and lose my shit – saying reactive and escalating things—and behaving badly. And then: I apologize and…
Author: Magda Gee
I am in a program of recovery for those whose lives have been affected by someone else's drinking, drug use, mental illness. I am newly learning faith, hope, and courage, practices not witnessed by me, in my childhood, with my family. Sadly, No Contact, as a last resort, is how I keep safe from diminishing words and actions directed at me. I think I have listened for the last time to how I deserve mistreatment. By holding out for something more wholesome and loving, I have been both banished and demanded to return. I prefer serenity to proximity. I will continue with my program and faith in the best possible outcome, so long as I do my part-- to stalk GOD as if my life depends on it.
The irreparable damage of having actively engaged my children in schemes of parental alienation and betrayal of their mother, is not a thing, we as…
I needed something from the world (which in formative years- meant my mother whom I counted on to soothe and support me) which I did not know how to…
Today my therapist asked why anyone might want to smear me, cost me my credibility, like why specifically my boys father or my sibling? Because…
Today marks the date of my mother’s birth and the continuing birthday – holiday season. I have been reflecting on my mother’s financially heroic rescue…
As for more more more, apparently that is exactly what a love bomber wants you to want and count on. I hate to use that…
If you were blessed in any of the following ways, in your upbringing and formative experience, you were privileged. Felt loved, seen, heard, safe, welcomed,…
For the past months, intractable insomnia has drastically diminished my ability to function. Circling the drain is the best I can do. My therapist encouraged…
Several things occurred last week to escalate my despair. And the thing which hurt the most, was the secondary feeling. You see, any time, I…
What if I had grown up with even one single person who saw me, heard me, was kind and compassionate and DECIDED that I was…