Yesterday, overly tired from waking at 4am, unable to return to sleep. I ruined myself from 4-8am, with recycled, if not hysterical thoughts of my older…
I am grateful (though broken hearted) that I was able to tell my older son (S1) and his father, in no uncertain terms, that I would…
Today’s service centered around Pilate and Jesus: Kingdoms in Conflict. John 18:33 – 18:37(quite possibly incorrectly notated-whatev) I begin by declaring that: I, in no…
While I am enjoying the peace and slow pace of an undemanding Thanksgiving Break for myself, my heart is so fucking heavy from what family…
I am deeply grateful for Considerate Birthdays, Mellow Halloweens, Compassionate Christmases, and today–a Tender Thanksgiving. I cannot know for sure, but suspect that if I…
Even at age 40, pre-recovery, I had not learned/internalized any absolute morals, by which I could hold myself accountable. I thought I did, but honestly,…
With Greg, boundaries are a non issue, we have compatible operating systems and shared values- prioritizing each other’s peace, comfort and pleasure. Goes without saying,…
A little more than 3 years ago, Greg and I began getting to know each other. A hectic time for me, newly relocated from the…
Expressed anger, no matter how true, right, or fairly it is communicated, in my family of origin, causes a person to be rendered crazy, mean,…
I prioritize the closeness and connection of my chosen relationships, holding zero regard for an illusion or status of having said “relationship”. Life is both…