So, in recovery, I get to practice not telling people about themselves, under any circumstance, with the exception of my children. This, I can not…
Shame and Guilt and Fear for openly wanting or needing more or different from what is being provided…. It never ends. I waited days to…
Schema, perspective, experience, understanding…shit. WOW. My younger son and I differ in so many beautiful ways, and also some difficult ones. Either way, he is…
I am realizing why roles and scripts are of increasing interest to me, as I learn to wean myself from a recurring dynamic. I can…
Exploring dating/intimacy/relationships has been instrumental for me learning to know and understand myself. I am currently in “negotiations” for a power differential (the dynamic has…
Ok, so from the very beginning with Stu, the widow, I was enamored by his ability to say what I needed to hear in the…
Ok, I have resumed journalling, rigorously, of course, because I either do things with rigor or not at all. sooo—With this man, who is widowed,…
So, here I am “dating” again…. And I feel as if it’s almost something to be admitted only in a whisper, to close friends, and…
Last week, Ed, my friend from the mountains, visited for our week together and we had such a nice time doing the most basic shit.…
After my friend in the mountains directed me, in a moment of distress, to “relax”, I was able to calmly request the following without any…