For the past months, intractable insomnia has drastically diminished my ability to function. Circling the drain is the best I can do. My therapist encouraged…
Author: Magda Gee
I am in a program of recovery for those whose lives have been affected by someone else's drinking, drug use, mental illness. I am newly learning faith, hope, and courage, practices not witnessed by me, in my childhood, with my family. Sadly, No Contact, as a last resort, is how I keep safe from diminishing words and actions directed at me. I think I have listened for the last time to how I deserve mistreatment. By holding out for something more wholesome and loving, I have been both banished and demanded to return. I prefer serenity to proximity. I will continue with my program and faith in the best possible outcome, so long as I do my part-- to stalk GOD as if my life depends on it.
Several things occurred last week to escalate my despair. And the thing which hurt the most, was the secondary feeling. You see, any time, I…
What if I had grown up with even one single person who saw me, heard me, was kind and compassionate and DECIDED that I was…
Month after month of: Serenity + Flow- easy and magical flow- we were convinced this has not been done before, that we invented this way…
I have been struggling to share about the untraditional nature of my relationship, which is by far the only profoundly satisfying one I have known…
So much to unpack from the last few months. I was sicker for more time (17 days!!) than I can recall ever being, with a…
So, one Monday morning in January, after the boys finally resumed school following the holidays, I headed to the gym, blue skies, sunny mid 50s…
The language of categorically and inherently wrong is new to me. Like, I see how if an individual or group is identified, in this way,…
Having been raised in an system in which love (access to connection and protection) could be earned, lost, and withheld, I did not fare well.…
From my earliest days, my high sensitivity to sensory and emotional impact (and therefore differing needs) were identified as trouble-making, a betrayal, a burden, a…