Month: May 2017

Acceptance, Faith, Intimacy, Musings, poetry, Self-Love

Me Too, Tell Me More

My recent exchange with my mother awakened in me the  exact “nature” of my lifelong experience, as her dependent and child.  If I said I was cold, rather than a sweater, snuggle, or blanket, I was offered a reading of the thermostat as proof that I could not feel that way (if I were normal, worthy, and honest).  When I reported  …

Acceptance, Faith, humor, Intimacy, Musings, poetry, Self-Love

We Who Are Your Closest Friends

we who are your closest friends feel the time has come to tell you that every Thursday we have been meeting as a group to devise ways to keep you in perpetual uncertainty frustration discontent and torture by neither loving you as much as you want nor cutting you adrift your analyst is in on …

Acceptance, Faith, Intimacy, Musings, Self-Love

I Wish You Well

After nearly a year of NO Contact-My mother and I have a seat in her living room. Me: So, lets just get this behind us. What exactly are you confused about, regarding this arrangement with my ex and how it affects me? Mom: I feel confused that you say you don’t feel safe with us. Me: Mom, …

Acceptance, Faith, Intimacy, Musings, Self-Love

The Miracles of Recovery

I am grateful for another brilliant hour of basketball spent with Keyaun and Zekaya.  They are angels…wholesome badass mofos.  My boys get so much good energy from being with them and it is pure magic to observe the engagement.  I love them.  I found Keyaun at our local Y and loved his energy and offered …

Acceptance, Faith, Intimacy, Musings, Self-Love

Gratitude Continued

I look forward to the day when my life is not entirely focused on survival and spiritual recovery.  Until then, I will just be grateful for parts of my life I owe to recovery.  Here are some of the items I have shared with my Project Miracle Buddy over the last few months.  Being a loving …

Acceptance, Altered Books, Faith, Intimacy, Musings, Self-Love

Project Miracle

I read, re-read, and listen to all words written or spoken by Anne Lamott.  Nearly two years ago, when I first moved here, I read about a project she did with a friend,  Project Miracle.   I believe it was from Bird by Bird.   For Project Miracle, you commit with a Trusted and Willing Other, each day, before …