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Building and Destroying Trust

Post author:Magda Gee
Post published:February 2, 2017
Post category:Surviving Narcissistic Abuse

https://youtu.be/gFJDDyvbO6A I am still contemplating the "dream" and the killing. My husband(in the dream) had the woman naked in a lucite box. He had cut her and she was bleeding…

My Dog and I are Both Canaries

Post author:Magda Gee
Post published:February 1, 2017
Post category:Surviving Narcissistic Abuse

Conceptually, I understand that our bodies keep the score and know the truth. Just as I understand that our thoughts and feelings manifest as vibrations that affect our worlds, no matter how much we resist the urge to overtly act on them. What we resist persists is certainly true of my thinking, especially when I am fixated on something which feels threatening. (more…)

When Your Mother Is Just Not That Into You

Post author:Magda Gee
Post published:January 31, 2017
Post category:Surviving Narcissistic Abuse

I learned today that my mother is not doing well. She will go for a CATscan next week and then there will be information regarding the status of her health. I suspect…

GPS Your Heart

Post author:Magda Gee
Post published:January 30, 2017
Post category:Surviving Narcissistic Abuse

Before recovery, I survived as a series of ~~mostly unfortunate~~ reactions. Consumed by confusion and fear of others people’s needs, demands, and criticisms I pinballed through my life- seeking only to hurt less. Never still nor quiet enough to hear what was in my heart♥. I lacked G.O.D.–Good Orderly Direction. What was clear and true in my FOO, I should get small and shut up(contract)-be less inconvenient…irritating. Overly sensitive and highly strung, my presence invited my family to lash out at me for the burden of my expression of feelings. The lashing and banishing made me become louder and more frantic. My experiences are not universal truths, yet they are real and they are MINE. Sharing my experience is how I connect and heal and grow. I go where I grow.

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