The Menu-Life Choices

Like a child, I want to choose only from a menu of: fun, relaxing, and highly lucrative.  Regarding my family of origin, there is no action to take…no matter how differently I want for things to be. I will know in my core when the time is right to do something different. For today I will choose to detach with patience and faith that I cannot force people, places, and things to be different just by taking big action(reaction).  We always have choices, but sometimes the menu (our life circumstance) appears to offer equally displeasing options; like- pain or more pain.

With regards to my children and my Sweet Greg, I choose to be present, loving, and gentle with myself.  I want to be all that I can be for those who count on me and love me in ways that feel wholesome.  I choose sanity and kindness.  Those two things are totally badass!  So grateful that recovery has provided more expansive menu selections.

What will you choose today?

Magda Gee

I am in a program of recovery for those whose lives have been affected by someone else's drinking, drug use, mental illness. I am newly learning faith, hope, and courage, practices not witnessed by me, in my childhood, with my family. Sadly, No Contact, as a last resort, is how I keep safe from diminishing words and actions directed at me. I think I have listened for the last time to how I deserve mistreatment. By holding out for something more wholesome and loving, I have been both banished and demanded to return. I prefer serenity to proximity. I will continue with my program and faith in the best possible outcome, so long as I do my part-- to stalk GOD as if my life depends on it.