Feelings are not Facts
The "feelings are not facts" words do not tell me not to feel major grief and anger. Can't get around those. It is the myriad of continuous flying feelings that…
Sadness- Part of the Healing Process
Today, I am deep into feeling, owning and healing from my tough beginnings in this world. My heart is open. And I am welcoming the new experiences with love, kindness…
Building and Destroying Trust
https://youtu.be/gFJDDyvbO6A I am still contemplating the "dream" and the killing. My husband(in the dream) had the woman naked in a lucite box. He had cut her and she was bleeding…
My Dog and I are Both Canaries
Conceptually, I understand that our bodies keep the score and know the truth. Just as I understand that our thoughts and feelings manifest as vibrations that affect our worlds, no matter how much we resist the urge to overtly act on them. What we resist persists is certainly true of my thinking, especially when I am fixated on something which feels threatening. (more…)
When Your Mother Is Just Not That Into You
I learned today that my mother is not doing well. She will go for a CATscan next week and then there will be information regarding the status of her health. I suspect…
GPS Your Heart
Before recovery, I survived as a series of mostly unfortunate reactions. Consumed by confusion and fear of others people’s needs, demands, and criticisms I pinballed through my life- seeking only to hurt less. Never still nor quiet enough to hear what was in my heart♥. I lacked G.O.D.–Good Orderly Direction. What was clear and true in my FOO, I should get small and shut up(contract)-be less inconvenient…irritating. Overly sensitive and highly strung, my presence invited my family to lash out at me for the burden of my expression of feelings. The lashing and banishing made me become louder and more frantic. My experiences are not universal truths, yet they are real and they are MINE. Sharing my experience is how I connect and heal and grow. I go where I grow.
Together We Rise–Yes We Do
Today the world feels safer, to me. Millions willing to speak truth to power, communicating with peaceful and united action. I intend to
follow directions offered on Michael Moore’s Facebook page and stick close to those whose values, actions, and words are aligned with kindness and love for people. All people. There is but one way, together.
My ♥ feels fuller and stronger. Feelings of hope and peace almost make me feel mentally unstable– after a solid year of sustained despair. Expansion under oppression is painful. The world is shifting– and there are those so deeply encamped, that transformation and progress feel threatening. My prayer: Bless them, change me. Always. This is ONE Wholesome Badass movement in our history. One of many. It is true that my spirituality is my greatest contribution to my parenting-raising children to not sit quietly while others are being diminished or denied. Like Glennon said, “I don’t give a shit if they get straight A’s or are popular.” What matters is that they are kind and compassionate. I will remind them frequently; “There is nobody that matters more than you.” “And nobody that matters less”. (more…)
Knowing and Using Our Power for Good
“I will not pretend to feel what I do not feel or to want what I do not want. I can only learn to love myself if I am willing to learn who I am.(….) I may not choose to act on those feelings or desires, but I won’t hide them from myself.” I will not deny parts of myself for the comfort of others any more than I will await permission to feel my feelings and meet my needs. I finally understand what it means to give away power and am no longer willing because I am learning to do better. Powerful women choose love and serenity. I haaated it when people would say “Don’t be so quick to give away your power.” I had no idea what that meant or how NOT to. Contraction and explosive rage were what we practiced in our home. Contraction to suit others and explosive or passive-aggressive rage when it seemed impossible to contract tightly enough.
For some, contraction is a way of life and they require it of others and are quick to retaliate at those who do not. I am raising two lil expansive and self-actualized lovers and seekers of elevation, expansion….authentic connection. (more…)
Why Lie?
Just as some of us need more food, sleep, exercise, some of us require more time and space to recover from daily life in this overstimulating world. So silly and exhausting…
Let’s Talk About Sex-Please
Lately, it has become apparent that the conversations need to begin now. Oh, how I want to impart healthy ideas about sex, bodies, love and intimacy. But who am I?…