Learning to Belong
As far back as I remember, I did not belong. Anywhere. I was different from the people to whom I am genetically linked, and regarded by them, in ways which…
The Quality of My Thoughts
When the people you are tethered to in childhood or marriage are the same ones who kick your feet out from under you, it fucks up your belief that things…
Formatting Errors v. Compatibility Issues
Labelling the Formatting Issues as errors is part of an ongoing joke between Sweet Greg and me. As I said, we really do not get angry with each other and…
No Means No
This morning, over breakfast, my older son(S1) asked if Greg and I ever get mad at each other. Of course, I did not offer a short response to this. I…
Never say Never
With active substance abuse and addiction, running in all directions of our family tree, we get to have many discussions on this matter. Both my boys insist they will never…
You Can’t Make Me and Neither Can I
“You can't make me and neither can I.” I am almost finished with Gretchen Rubin’s Four Tendencies and this line really stayed with me. ???Hard truth. Discipline over my thinking is a…
Trust in Kindness
It is painful to witness my boys being expected to suffer silently or get comfortable in the presence of unkindness. Their father and I have very different principles and versions…
I am a work in progress.
Day 15 I Can Not Be Counted On
I Can Not Be Counted On: To be perfectTo be manipulated by fear, favoritism, or giftsTo agree or even feign agreementTo pretend that things are different from how they areTo…
Day 14 Character Analysis
https://www.instagram.com/p/BsjOiTTHM7C/ Nearing the end of Ayn Rand's The Fountainhead, I am taking note of the qualities in the characters that I find admirable and deplorable. Initially I could not understand…
Day 13 Second-Handers
Every spare moment has been dedicated to slowly devouring The Fountainhead or binge-watching Schitt's Creek. Regarding Fountainhead, it is a loooooong read but the depth of the characters is beyond…