I have been hungering, starving for a way to explore THIS, outside of my limiting perspective/ personal experience and SO—am now contemplating graduate school for a MA in Applied Ethics. Putting my mind to work in a course of study and research of a matter so very relevant to me, would be incredible. Who knows where it will lead? Maybe only one class or two, or completion of a Masters or even a PhD.
My program of recovery introduced me to the concept of obedience to the unenforceable as it relates to our program principles—like– even in our meetings, it is not an option to force people to obey or leave. The only consequence for disobedience is having to exist at a lower vibration. Each of the 12 Step Programs offer step by step direction on how and why to be obedient to the unenforceable, as part of living our best lives. This made good sense to me once I connected with a power greater than myself.
I continue to marvel at undeniably harmful actions, which, depending on the doer of the deed–are tolerated, enabled, minimized, dismissed— in families, in schools, in the work place and by our current administration and also by those who pride themselves in political correctness and who often tyrannize through happiness policing– shutting down difficult conversations which support sharing and listening to differing perspectives.
I do realize that gaining a deeper understanding of ethics will not make me more right/correct– and will not allow me to enforce anything. But –the study of ethics and morality seems to offer a more wholesome outlet for otherwise obsessive and troubling thoughts about why and how people do as they do. Maybe being able to understand ethicality and morality will free me from the urge to judge people as just wrong and bad. (Hell, perhaps they are right and bad-hahahaha) It is possible to be “right” in reason and unethical and immoral in method. Will this help me with my goal of living a more merciful existence? Fock, I hope so. I am enjoying my mercy tattoo very much- but have been unable to get a good photo.
I am beyond pleased to have found a way to direct my pain and confusion toward academic pursuits which might allow me to exist outside the confining narrative which gave birth to this blog. The idea of GRE prep seems daunting though, and I hope will not hinder me too much.
