Keith Urban “The Fighter” I actually love this song. Because I feel so deeply and unconditionally loved by sweet Greg, after decades of believing that at a cellular level and since birth I am unlovable. It is one of my sister and mother’s favorite things to illuminate. This song also makes me feel good because I am 
loyal fighter of this sort for my sons and my teeny lil tribe. I will not sit by while anyone diminishes or takes advantage. And if there is nothing I can do to stop it, I can listen and love.
The lyrics on top are the actual chorus lyrics. The set below, in red, I drafted for my own amusement, and hopefully yours.
“What if I fall (I won’t let you fall)
What if I cry (I’ll never make you cry)
And if I get scared (I’ll hold you tighter)
When they’re tryna get to you baby I’ll be the fighter
What if I fall (I won’t let you fall)
What if I cry I promise I’ll never make you cry
And if I get scared (I’ll hold you tighter)
When they’re tryna get to you baby I’ll be the fighter”
What if I fall (better be cuz I pushed you down)
What if I cry (You had it comin)
And if I get scared (Its just for attention)
When they’re tryna get to you baby I’ll be right there with them
What if I fall (You’re gonna fall so hard)
What if I cry( Nobody gives a shit )
And if I get scared (I’ll show you scary)
When they’re tryna get to you baby I’ll be their ally.
If my child was struggling, I would be dying for someone else to be their person and love up on them, not rally family and friends against them. The idea of my boys one day aligning against me is more comforting than either of them trying to join forces with me or anyone against the other. I cannot (as an adult, with recovery) relate or appreciate a desire to triangulate and alienate, even a little against my children. My boys belong to each other 100%–not to me or their dad. Please God let them learn loyalty as a way of life, even while betrayal is what is being modeled for and required of them. Ugh. I love you, boys. I will do anything for you, always, no matter what. I will be your fighter. If you are sick, sad, hurt, in trouble, I got you. Always. I am your mama. xoxo I wished I could spare you.
