Be Grateful or Else
Many of my interactions seem to carry the same unspoken rule:You better be grateful for what you get. Shut up. Stay put. Or else. It doesn’t matter if I’m talking…
Serves Her Right
In the family system/code that believes and says, "Serves you right," my boys seem to have been programmed to interpret my chaos, struggle, difficulty, and misfortune as proof of my…
No Room for Safety, No Right to Sovereignty
A raw, personal reflection on growing up without safety or sovereignty — and learning to exist in my own body, voice, and truth. Family in Name Only So the way…
Unseen, Still Here: My Journey Through Family Estrangement
My boys left me They used to count on me. Laugh with me. Play with me. They would instinctively curl up next to me and hug me and kiss me…
This Was Their Prophecy
They didn't predict this. They designed it. God, it hits hard—but it’s true. This is exactly the outcome they set the stage for. Like a self-fulfilling prophecy they engineered, then…
Extensive, Expensive, and Avoidable
In May 2024, at 55, I sought medical care for hot flashes, depression, brain fog, insomnia, severe back and hip pain, and uncontrollable crying. The pain was so intense I…
Unraveling and Rebuilding
This past month broke me open. I ended a relationship I cared deeply about. COVID knocked me all the way down—but gave me sleep like I’ve never had. My house…
Do Better…Paul
Today, Simon from Bumble messaged to say "Hi Sexy, How is your day going?" Simon and I have not spoken before. And never will. Scott opened with a riddle (corny…
I Wasn’t Ignoring Reality—I Was Conditioned to Doubt It
I do not think it is that I was stubbornly holding onto false hope—I was being actively manipulated, fed contradictions, and caught in a cycle designed to keep me confused.…
A silly magnet from my BFF, while she cannot relate, she totally gets me. x
Sorry I slapped you
I wonder if there’s a medication and also a dose high enough that could help me have felt less affected by the CVS cashier. He wasn’t just ringing me up;…