Pain
My grandmother visited my childhood home a few times a year and I alllllwaaaays looked forward to her arrival. She was radiant, popular, and very important. On rare occasions in…
My grandmother visited my childhood home a few times a year and I alllllwaaaays looked forward to her arrival. She was radiant, popular, and very important. On rare occasions in…
Though I am intimately familiar with the energy and attitudes which I have always identified in the “serves you right- types”, I have only just now discovered the term Schadenfreude. I…
Because I was raised without healthy sustained connection with my care givers, I attempted to build an identity around attachments and affiliations- which would not ever satisfy my need for safe…
In relationships, if it is conditional, it is not kind. I can think of nothing more confused and distorted than my early ideas about kindness and connection. I literally, for…
Oh, Like a lightning bolt- it struck me, again. How much, extremists of any sort can not "tolerate" peaceful protest or resistance. To them-- to not conform to the forced…
Seems as if stonewalling and gaslighting are techniques intended to erase a person, to obliterate their spirit. Stonewalling is a tactic used by bullies to control a situation; to isolate,…
In their young efforts to address my George Floyd despair, my boys offered me this: "Mom, he did have meth in his system and had been previously arrested for armed…
My steady refusal of gifts and moments of staged harmony (in place of healing, repair, and honest connection) illuminated my unwillingness to bypass necessary mending. An offer to do the…
Torture (unlike abuse which is often spontaneous and unintentional, though still scarring) is pre-meditated and planned out. It is designed to methodically dismantle a person's identity and humanity, destroying a…
I was born to un-white skin, a foreign name, one Middle Eastern Moslem parent and the other an Agnostic Jew. Later, bussed across town to the "black school" for the…