Low Blood Sugar and Anxiety
In the past year, I have noted consistently how my low blood sugar either triggers or mimics anxiety for me. I feel ill much of the time, the way I…
In the past year, I have noted consistently how my low blood sugar either triggers or mimics anxiety for me. I feel ill much of the time, the way I…
How I wished I would have been a nice kid. Kindness and humility were neither natural nor modeled for me. I was scared shitless, constantly--with no healthy coping skills. I…
I don’t really get it. How is it ever better for relationships and trust, to rely on indirect communication for genuine understanding of needs, wants, desires, feelings? I seriously hate that shit… It is only acceptable to me, when done with someone whom I trust and we get to call it out and laugh about it-TOGETHER. That is the whole point of relationships, right–the together part? Connection?
When something feels unpleasant, unfair, or upsetting, what is wrong with: “Hey, I don’t like that or that makes me uncomfortable”? Is it too vulnerable, maybe presenting the other person a chance to honestly show you what matters more, your comfort or them getting to do the thing they are doing? Or is it some statement of imperfection or defectiveness to have a need or to feel uncomfortable? And so what if it is? I may never get this.
Here are some fun examples of playfully indirect communication with Greg, as we mutually value and rely on direct communication. With sensory issues through the roof, I experience the sound quality of iPhone speaker, even on low volume, to be stressful. So, when he elects to listen to a video or podcast using speaker, I laugh and say “Hey, want to borrow my earbuds?” He laughs back and says “Nah, I’m good”. Then he grabs his earbuds and we laugh and smooch. Intentionally indirect communication would be me throwing a face, sighing deeply, expecting him to KNOW and revere my discomfort, or to ask me what is wrong. So I could be all: “nothing”, resenting him for not being a mind reader who knows and loves me as completely as I deserve…. and then becoming cold and withdrawn for an incalculable amount of time, while escalating tension by denying any issue at all. (more…)
Because we have recovery in our home, we get to practice clarifying, for ourselves and each other, the difference between unpleasant facts and problems. Before recovery, I believed if something…
It is horrifying to look back over my life and to reflect on the countless times in which I felt either so indisputably right OR so completely wrong,bad,worthless; like--there was…
Why is the requirement to behave with loyalty towards his brother deeply offensive to my younger son? He enjoys his firm command over an arsenal of typically subtle tactics, to make…
6:45 a.m.- It doesn't even mater why... I woke to crushing anxiety this morning, as I do most, overwhelming, free-floating anxiety tied to nothing in particular and everything all at…
I am feeling especially aware and grateful for my own acceptance of my deep core truth that I often need to do nothing, absolutely nothing. Not listening, talking, momming, cleaning, working…
I have never, not ever, properly disposed of old batteries, yet I collect them and store them as if I might. I do not want them in landfills destroying our…
I heard it expressed frequently by my family of origin-- which led to my own false belief that we may each enforce our truths and wills on those who disturb…