
Stonewalling Breaks Me
Stonewalling breaks me. I don’t bounce back from it. But I've repeatedly and predictably returned for more. Hopefully, for the last time. The silent treatment and banishment were the standard…
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action or later. Please see Debugging in WordPress for more information. (This message was added in version 6.7.0.) in /var/www/wp-includes/functions.php on line 6121Stonewalling breaks me. I don’t bounce back from it. But I've repeatedly and predictably returned for more. Hopefully, for the last time. The silent treatment and banishment were the standard…
I’ve come to understand something about myself, and it’s both painful and clarifying: I gravitate toward people who use silence as a weapon. Stonewalling—cold, controlled, absolute silence—is a dynamic I…
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