I may spend all of my days seeking a way to forgive and emotionally release one who knowingly chooses to do harmful things to those…
Author: Magda Gee
I am in a program of recovery for those whose lives have been affected by someone else's drinking, drug use, mental illness. I am newly learning faith, hope, and courage, practices not witnessed by me, in my childhood, with my family. Sadly, No Contact, as a last resort, is how I keep safe from diminishing words and actions directed at me. I think I have listened for the last time to how I deserve mistreatment. By holding out for something more wholesome and loving, I have been both banished and demanded to return. I prefer serenity to proximity. I will continue with my program and faith in the best possible outcome, so long as I do my part-- to stalk GOD as if my life depends on it.
Unrelated things which I have thought or heard over the past five weeks: Sometimes we need to explain or discuss things in order to gain…
As a child and young adult I had not known that I possessed any agency over the trajectory of my life. It seemed pre-determined. In the place…
We recently survived a tragic and highly traumatic event, with our most precious, best girl, an Albino Boa, named Goldie. My older son adored and cared…
As part of my practice of recovery, I do take daily personal inventory and sadly, I am not so recovered that I resist also taking…
Nothing good is born out of shame. Ever. And it does not resolve itself over time. If we don’t intentionally work to heal it, shame makes us…
From Strengthening My Recovery p13- January 12 Trait One “We became isolated and afraid of people and authority figures.” Big Red Book p.10 So many…
This is my 11th day since receiving my daily reader. Below is the daily reading for January 11, titled False Self: Many of us couldn’t be…
I was thinking how little I have in common with my family of origin. And then I realized HEY: for most of my life, we…
Without recovery, I would still possess only the tools and beliefs of dysfunction; a fixed mindset with a Zero-sum mentality– all conflicts resulting in a…